For most of my life, pointe shoes were my footing. The stage, the rehearsals, and the performing, that made up most of my life. Over the years, I have slowly been letting dancing go more and more. Not necessarily because I want to, but circumstantially, that’s where God has lead me.
I am finding my footing as full-time wife and mom. The bigger and bigger my three sons grow, the more and more, I want to be all here and fully available. I am finding my footing as a writer too. Often I feel like I am stumbling my way through it, but I love the work so much. I can’t force words. But words seem to force their way out of my heart and onto the page.
Real life is mixed in with finding my footing. Our little six year old broke his arm a couple of days ago, and we had a fire-ant scare. Normal, real stuff that rocks my boat a bit. Our three boys have my whole heart. Sometimes my heart feels like it’s walking around outside my body, and that makes me feel a little wobbly! My goodness, I love them so much! Spiritually speaking too, I feel like my 37 year old self still stumbles her way through grace.
Finding my footing as a wife, mom, writer, and former dancer…has been the sweetest dance. Not always pretty. Not always easy. But I’m finding my footing in the everlasting strength of Jesus. He steadies me. He gives me strong footing. Sometimes I forget to look to Him when I’m stumbling, but when I do, He turns my heart the right way. Sometimes I feel a little lost without my pointe shoes, but when I look to Him, my heart is so thankful for all that I get to do right here and right now. Sometimes I wish God would give me an outline of how all of my dreams and daily life are going to go, but the minute I remember He’s in control, I’m okay with not knowing all the details.
We all have seasons where we lose our footing a bit or maybe we feel like we haven’t ever really found strong footing. We all long to dance through life with conviction, with strength, with solid confidence, right? Some of us, (hello, raising my hand here!) are not wired to be that strong. Some of us struggle with staying solid in our footing. That’s why it’s the sweetest news that we have Jesus. He secures our footing. He solidifies our identity. He steadies our hearts.
So wherever you are today, I want you to know that you can find your footing and find rock, solid foundation in Jesus and in His Word. He’s our constant refuge when we feel lost. He’s our source when we don’t know what step to take next. He’s our identity. We are His. You are His. When you feel a little unsteady in your life, run to Him. He will steady you. He will secure your footing.
You don’t have to hold yourself together, He will hold you together.
You don’t have to figure out your destiny, He will guide you step by step.
You don’t have to define yourself with a label, You are His.
You are a daughter of Christ, and He wants to do precious and great things through you. So when you feel yourself stumbling, let His grace catch you, dear one.
“When I said, ‘My foot is slipping, your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.'” Psalm 94:18
Love and grace,